Bittersweet feelings

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.
- Ecclesiastes 3:1


Endings are always tough for me.  I have a hard time saying good-bye, and I find that it only gets harder and harder as I get older.

As of yesterday, I'm now a stay-at-home mom.  I'm really excited about beginning this journey with Daniel. I will get to see all of his exciting milestones and I'll be the one in charge of raising him.  I will be the one who knows his routine and feeds him his lunch. I'll put him down for naps and plays with him during the day. I feel it's very empowering as a mother and I realize how blessed I am to have this opportunity. 

As excited as I am, I'm also really nervous.  I've been part of the working world for 11 years now - it's part of who I am and my identity. What do people do during normal working hours?  Will I become a morning Wal-Mart shopper?  I'm ready for daytime trips to the library, park, and outside play time.  I hope I get to tackle that closet and keep it organized (LOL)

As time goes on, each farewell only gets harder.  You spend so much time with your co-workers that they become a family to you. Some are your favorites, while others are like your crazy cousins that you only see at family reunions (and you're perfectly ok with that). You laugh together, cry together, and get mad at each other.  You learn their moods, their quirks, and share life events with them. I have been blessed to meet some of my very best friends while working. 

I'm not going to forget my friends or the memories I have made, but I am going to look forward to the future...being a full-time mom to Daniel.  Besides, how could I not be excited about this little guy...


Daniel and MawMaw made me a sign
And I think our first day has been great so far...

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